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Old Nov 11, 2002, 08:20 AM   #1
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Just two weeks after Yoko Ono won her September court battle to reclaim John Lennon's photographs and notes stolen by his former aide, the other love of Lennon's life made a bombshell discovery.

Native New Yorker May Pang, who had a secret affair with the ex-Beatle almost 30 years ago, finally found out that Lennon's passion burned for her long after their romance had ended.

Reading an interview with Lennon's unofficial biographer Robert Rosen, who was a witness in Ono's legal action, Pang was shocked to find out that Rosen branded Lennon's love for her as the "saddest" aspect of his writings.

According to Rosen, a former pal of Lennon's aide-turned-thief, Frederic Seaman, the ex-Beatle's continued desire for Pang was evident in many of the diary entries he made from 1975 until his slaying outside the Dakota apartments on Dec. 8, 1980.

"It was so clear he was dying to be with her and he couldn't do it. He wrote about that a lot," Rosen said.

Until then, Pang knew nothing of the writings.

"I wanted to cry. I always knew it in my heart, but John's actions proved differently," said Pang of her discovery. "He went back to Yoko and nobody knew what the underlying situation was. But I knew."

Pang last spoke to Lennon on the telephone during the Memorial Day weekend of 1980, and talked about their time together, she said.

Pang said: "At one point, he said, ĎI've been thinking about you a lot. I've been trying to think of how to get you out to our house in the Hamptons. I don't know how to do it.' "

The Pang-Lennon affair was one of the most unusual romances in the annals of rock history - one that began in 1973, when Ono suggested the attractive 23-year-old should become Lennon's mistress.

Pang had been working for the Lennons since 1970, during one of their early trips to America.

Their affair - known as Lennon's "Lost Weekend" - started during the recording of his "Mind Games" album, which is set to be re-released this month.

"Yoko wasn't around . . . she had no involvement at all," Pang recalled. "And when she worked on her album [at the same studio], John would stay home. They were already having their split with the music."

Lennon and Pang eventually lived together for 18 months, traveling between Los Angeles and New York.

Ten years his junior and reluctant to jeopardize her job and her future in the music business, Pang said she refused her boss's advances for as long as she could.

In her book, "Loving John," Pang described the moment of surrender that took place in her studio apartment on the Upper East Side.

"John slowly drew me to him and cradled me in his arms. He began to kiss me gently. I felt inexperienced, awkward and an unlikely choice for a man like John Lennon," she wrote.

"After we made love, John said, ĎWe fit like a glove. We're perfect together.' "

The relationship ended almost as suddenly as it began. A terse call from Ono telling Lennon to come to the Dakota for a mysterious "smoking cure" was all it took to get him back home for good.

"This Ď[Lost] Weekend' business was the only way he could put it when he went back to Yoko. It was his concept," Pang said.

It's uncertain whether Pang will ever see Lennon's words declaring his love for her. Ono has had possession of the controversial diaries since an earlier court action against Seaman in the mid-'80s.

But no one can take away her memories, said Pang, who still lives in New York. She is working on a new book, which will feature her own unpublished photographs of John Lennon.

"We had a great time. We did a lot of stuff. We did ĎRock 'n' Roll.' We did ĎWalls and Bridges.' He reacquainted himself with his son [Julian] and the other three guys in his former band. He looked healthy, he looked happy. And he was functioning like a human being," she said.



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How very poignant! Thanks so much for posting this, ShyGirl, and giving us another insight into a jumbled soul.

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Sounds to me as if maybe he was contemplating leaving Yoko for May. Alas, we'll never really know.

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Thanks for posting this, shyGirl. May is fascinating to me!



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Yeah, thanks for posting this. Talk about poignancy.

I can't help but feel sad for Yoko knowing that she found out John was carrying the torch for someone else. There is just no way to know what might have been...

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I know a little more about this. May emailed me on Friday night to notify me of the Rosen interview on absoluteelsewhere.com, and she said, "I was pretty surprised" to find out about the diaries.
So was I; apparently, according to the article, which I will post, there is another woman mentioned in the diaries who is referred to only as "A". That has me really curious.
Anyhow, I knew that John loved May, because we had discussed it. As a matter of fact, the reason I had originally contacted May close to a year ago when I came across her website, was to tell her how much she had really meant to John, and we have kept in touch since then. John told me that he would never actually come out and tell her because he wanted her to be able to get on with her life. He didn't want her to be putting everything on hold when he knew that he was going to stay with Yoko, whom he also loved desperately and felt that he really needed emotionally as well.She made him feel safe and he felt lost when he was away from her. On the other hand, May offered him unconditional love. I put a post in Paperback Writer which contains the parts I have already written for May's book, at her request, if anyone wants to know more about that. Also, here is the rest of the Rosen articlenote- the bit about John really being only 5'8" is untrue. I am 5'11" and we were the same height)



An Interview with Robert Rosen
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Absolute Elsewhere's ladyjean talked
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As fate would have it, Robert Rosen was offered the opportunity of a lifetime, when the personal diaries of the late John Lennon were suddenly and unexpectedly put in his hands in 1981. After almost 20 years, Rosenís account of what Lennon wrote in those journals (based on his own recollections and personal experiences) was recently published. How did Rosen happen to receive the diaries? What hidden aspects of Lennonís reclusive life was revealed in them? Why did it take so long for the story about the diaries to come to light? These and many other questions are answered in the following interview that I conducted with Robert Rosen on August 21, 2001. ~ladyjean

ladyjean: Why did it take almost 20 years for the book to be published?

Robert Rosen: One of the problems was that all mainstream publishers were afraid to touch the material. They were afraid of being sued by Yoko [Ono]. I had virtually memorized the diaries, and over a period of 20 years I was trying to figure out how I could communicate the information that was in the diaries without directly quoting from the diaries. I found that little bits and pieces of information from the diaries were coming out in various ways...in gossip columns, newspaper articles, other peopleís books. And around 1994/1995, the Web exploded and I saw all these other things on the Web. What I was able to do was put together virtually all the information that was in the diaries from other sources. This was not really something I had been pursuing day in and day out, I would put it aside for years, but it would always keep coming back to me. I would see something, I would hear something, and it just wouldnít quit. You know, the story really haunted me.

lj: The way I understand it, from what you said in your book, you are basing your rewritten version on the actual diaries that you had in your hands at one point

RR: I had the diaries for many months and I transcribed them...actually I transcribed them over and over, because the handwriting itself was very difficult to penetrate. Parts of it were written in code. And I just kept going at it, day in and day out for months, until I figured out what he was saying. I found that a lot of the material in his diaries was so compelling. The first thing I did after the diaries were taken from me...after I recovered from being in a state of shock...was sit down and recreate the diaries from memory.

lj: Iím intrigued by this thing about code. What do you think John was trying to do?

RR: I think it was a shorthand...that he wasnít writing out peopleís names. Things like that. It wasnít really clear who the ďOĒ was, or somebodyís initials.

lj: In the book there was some woman who he called ďAĒ.

RR: Right. I actually didnít figure out who that was until I read Albert Goldmanís book [The Lives of John Lennon]. I consider a lot of stuff in Albert Goldmanís book to be grossly exaggerated, but I did find the book useful for certain names. That would trigger some memory of something from Lennonís diaries and I would be able to piece something together. That was part of the process that I was going through for 20 years.

lj: When John was writing in his journals, did it appear that he was writing quickly?

RR: It would vary from day to day. There were days...there were years...that he really got into it and it was like a stream of consciousness. You know...everything he ate that day, everything he dreamed that day, every bowel movement. And then there were days, particularly towards the end, when he was working on Double Fantasy, and all his energy was going into the album. He just pretty much stopped writing. ďOff to the recording studio...Ē would pretty much be what he would write about the whole day.

lj: Some of the things he was writing were so eccentric...for example, his bowel movements. Did he describe that, or did he just write ďI was constipated todayĒ?

RR: He didnít go into detail. But say, he would smoke some weed and heíd pig out on some canolies or something, and it would give him indigestion, and heíd get diarrhea or constipated.

lj: So when he was in that kind of a phase, he would write down everything he ate?

RR: Yeah, he was really compulsive. On the other hand, when he got into something else, mainly the album, it was just three words per day.

lj: When he was being compulsive about writing in the diaries, did it appear that that was all he really had in his life?

RR: At times. There were years, there were months, there were weeks, where he was just extremely isolated. He seemed to be holed up in his bedroom, watching TV, smoking weed, and keeping the diaries. And looking out the window. That was pretty much it. Obviously he had contact with other people, but there were times when he was really, really isolated.

lj: Do you feel that he was doing this, as he had with so many other things in his life, to document his life for historical purposes?

RR: I donít know if he was really thinking about doing it for history. This is only speculation...it wasnít really clear exactly what he was doing...but it occurred to me that this could have been the rough draft for the ďgreat memoir,Ē which he never had the opportunity to write.

lj: He and Yoko had been very into documenting everything about their lives, so I was wondering if this might have been a part of that.

RR: Obviously he was into documenting every moment. Keep in mind, too, that when he was keeping the diaries between 1975 and 1980, he was having very little contact with reporters. I think he felt that if somebody else wasnít documenting what he was doing, then he would do it. It wasnít only the writing, there were newspaper clippings. Every time something would turn up about him in the paper, he got really excited and heíd clip it and put it in his diary. It was all a part of the stream of consciousness.

lj: It must have been amazing to look at those diaries.

RR: It was one of the most amazing things that ever happened to me...creatively, journalistically, career wise...it was an incredible turning point in my life to have access to this.

lj: You said you were also given audio tapes from Fred Seaman. How many of those were there?

RR: There were boxes of them and I didnít really have a chance to listen to it all. At some point, there was so much material being given to me I began to ask, ďWhat are we talking about here, Fred, a lifetime project?Ē I felt that the diaries were the key to the project, the key to Johnís life, and thatís what I concentrated on. I listened to some of the audio tapes. They were kind of interesting, but the diaries were far and away the most interesting.

lj: You said you were also given some unseen, private videotapes.

RR: Iíve seen some of that turn up in other places now. This was stuff that was taken out back at Cold Spring Harbor and in Bermuda

lj: Were these things that Fred Seaman had been involved with and thatís why he had them?

RR: Exactly.

lj: You and Fred Seaman were friends before he started working for John?

RR: Right. I met Fred back in 1973/1974 at City College. There was a newspaper there called Observation Post and I was the Editor in Chief, and Fred got involved. And we became friends. We lived down the block from each other.

lj: At the point that Fred became employed by John, were you just automatically made privy to a lot of things?

RR: From day one he started telling me everything that was going on. Heíd call me a few times a week and tell me in detail what was going on with John and Yoko and Sean. He would come over to the house when he was in town. From the first day, it was a constant stream of information.

lj: So you were hearing everything as it was happening?

RR: He told me from the first day that he wanted to collaborate on a book about John. That this was a family obligation. He felt that his uncle Norman should have written a book. He felt that I was the person who was going to help him carry this out.

lj: You hinted that John might have suspected this?

RR: Well, Fred was a journalism major and John wasnít stupid. It was bizarre to me. If you donít want your private life to come out, then you donít hire a journalism major as your personal assistant. What was he thinking?

lj: It appears from what Iíve read over the years that John really trusted Fred...that he liked him.

RR: I think he trusted Fred to some degree. I donít know if ďlikeĒ is the word. I donít think John liked a lot of people. I think that it was very difficult for John to find a person to do the kind of job that Fred did. And Fred was in the right place at the right time.

lj: But he must have been satisfied with Fred as his personal assistant.

RR: There were things in Johnís diaries that indicated that he wasnít exactly happy with Fred. But Fred managed to keep the job. I donít think John could have found anybody who would have been exactly what he wanted. I think he kind of wanted a machine, and unfortunately it required a human being to do the job. Fred did something to me that I found unforgivable; he ransacked my apartment. And yet, I still feel a certain kind of sympathy for what he went through. The exposure.

lj: Are you and Fred still friends today?

RR: I havenít spoken to Fred in 20 years. When I came home from Jamaica, and found my apartment ransacked, and all the work I had done over the past year taken...that was pretty much the end. I had suspicions up to that point, but I kept tuning them out. He had been using me and I allowed myself to be used, because I was being given access to this amazing material.

lj: Why did Fred steal all the stuff from your apartment?

RR: Fred had been fired by Yoko. He was able to hook up with a businessman who was financing the project. And I think this guy convinced Fred to cut me out.

lj: And Yoko didnít even know the diaries were missing until she talked to you?

RR: Right. It was the summer of 1982. When everything was stolen, I was absolutely horrified. I was in a state of shock. Everything was gone. For two weeks I was paralyzed. I couldnít do a thing. But I eventually sat down and started recreating the diaries from memory. The more I wrote, the more I remembered. After a few months, I had a pretty thorough manuscript. And here I was, an unemployed freelance journalist with quite a story. So I started sending out query letters and one of the people I sent one to was Jann Wenner, the publisher of Rolling Stone. He wanted to meet with me and talk about this story of John Lennonís diaries. So I told him, and he went to Elliot Mintz saying, ďThis freelance writer is coming around saying he has the inside story on John Lennonís diaries...I have no idea who this guy is, but what heís saying sounds true...I think you should look into this.Ē And thatís how it started. Eventually I met with Yoko and I told her what happened.

lj: It appears from what you wrote in your book, that Yoko back stabbed you, too.

RR: Well, Yoko kept my diaries for many, many years and she finally gave them back, just as the book was being published. I got most of them back. I donít know what happened to a couple of them. My diaries contained all the stuff that Fred was telling me. Yoko wanted to see my diaries beginning with the day that Fred went to work for John up to the day she met me. So that was from January 1979 through August 1982. There were 16 different volumes.

lj: So when you turned those over to her, she used that to get Fred, and then didnít want to return them to you?

RR: Exactly. I think it was that she wanted to punish me.

lj: This leads to the question: What do you think of Yoko based on your personal experience with her?

RR: At the moment...she returned my diaries. Sheís not my friend, sheís not my enemy. I try to steer clear of her. But if I ran into her in the street, I would say hello. Sheís not a person who inspires trust, but on the other hand, sheís not as totally evil as sheís been made out to be. You have to find some middle ground there. My lawyers are on speaking terms with her lawyers and no threatening words are being exchanged. I think that is the best situation you could hope for.

lj: She accepted your book being published?

RR: She didnít try to stop it. I met with her attorneys and they wanted to read it before it came out. I think they eventually managed to get their hands on the galleys. I think there are things in the book Yoko would have preferred me not to say, but one of the strengths of the book is that I bent over backwards to be evenhanded.

lj: I think you did a very good job in regard to that. Letís backtrack a little. Based on what Fred was telling you on a regular basis about John, what was your opinion about John Lennon at that time?

RR: Pretty much what I described in the first few paragraphs in the book, about this totally dysfunctional guy who was lying around raving about Jesus. Fred was convinced that John would never create again. He thought it was over. Because John was so dysfunctional, it seemed that Fred held him in contempt. His opinion changed completely when John started working on Double Fantasy, but up to that moment he was saying that John was a total waste. I donít think Fred was totally off base, but on the other hand, I donít think he realized that John was putting all his creative energy into his diaries.

lj: Letís get back to the diaries. You said some days he would be very, very detailed and then other days he would just scrawl out something. So there was no real consistency to them?

RR: He would be consistently writing thousands and thousands of words for days, weeks, and months. And that would go on for several years, when he was most isolated. Sometimes heíd take a separate piece of paper and glue it into the journal and write a couple of extra thousand words on it. When he was off on those extended stays in Japan, just hanging out in his hotel room, not doing anything, heíd just be writing and writing. In 1977 or 1978, he really got into programming his dreams. He would write down in excruciating detail every little thing about his dreams. There were times when he wrote more about his dreams than his waking life.

lj: It seems what we are getting in your book is just a glimpse of what you saw in the journals.

RR: I could not say everything I wanted to say, because there were some things that I knew about that I couldnít find an outside source to confirm. I was legally obligated not to quote from the diaries, and I cannot say that the book was based on the diaries.

lj: How much information is still missing?

RR: I tried to give the flavor of his dreams, for example, but I couldnít really tell what was in the dreams. Some of the stuff about McCartney being busted in Japan, I couldnít quite tell that story the way I wanted to. There was stuff about John and Yokoís sex life I couldnít confirm from another source, so I couldnít get into it in the kind of detail that would have been more revealing...but not in a tawdry way. The trip to South Africa and the whore houses...I couldnít go into the kind of detail I really wanted to. But thereís nothing thatís really vital that I completely left out.

lj: Did he write at length about his attempt to achieve Yoga powers and spiritual perfection?

RR: There were times that he meditated every single day.

lj: He was trying to reach perfection in a physical body?

RR: Yes. But he realized that he couldnít do it. He realized that it was too difficult. He tried...with the fasting, with the yoga, with the meditation, with the vow of silence, with the prayer.

lj: And this was a main goal that he wanted to achieve in his life?

RR: That was one of his goals over the five-year house-husband period. He really wasnít sure until right after he came out of it, that what he wanted to do was record the album. What he would have preferred was to emerge after those five years as a full-blown Yogi and psychic, but he couldnít do that. He didnít have the discipline to achieve that. When he realized that he couldnít do it, he started focusing all his energy on Double Fantasy.

lj: Did he go into detail about what he was achieving with the meditation, etc.?

RR: He hinted at it. Thatís why I had to do a lot of research into those things. Then it became clear to me that that was what he was doing. Johnís problem was that a part of him longed for spiritual perfection, but the other part longed to hang out in his bedroom, smoke weed, and indulge in the carnal pleasures. Every facet of his life had that dichotomy and thatís what made him such a compelling personality.

lj: Was there any indication in the diaries that there was a lot of drug use going on?

RR: He liked smoking marijuana. And when he got mushrooms, he enjoyed taking those, too. There was a lot of talk about cocaine at recording sessions, and he might have briefly referred to it, but his drug choice during the years of isolation was marijuana.

lj: When you talked about Johnís compulsion with his weight and his fasting, you say that he was 5í 8íí. For over 35 years, itís been thought that he was 5í 11íí.

RR: I donít believe he was that tall. There has been controversy about exactly how tall he was. And 5í 8íí is an educated guess based on numerous things. I tried on some of his clothes and they fit. Iím 5í 8íí and they fit almost perfectly. It was a very eerie experience, putting his clothing on. I thought, ďhe must have been my height...Iím 5í 8íí...Ē

lj: How did you happen to be putting on his clothes?

RR: It was part of the stuff that Fred was bringing over. The amount of stuff that he was bringing to my apartment was astonishing. Boxes were piled to the ceiling.

lj: Among the people that you mentioned talking to in regard to the book were Rich and Greg Martello. Did they play a major role in this whole story?

RR: Not really. They were just assistants in the front office. They were gofers. They just happened to be there the final year. I hung out with them. I was hanging around with people on the staff.

lj: I have a series of related questions that Iíd like to ask you. The first one is: In reading Johnís diaries, what did you find most endearing about him?

RR: His relationship with Sean. That was genuine. The guilt he felt over things. He was struggling with these very human problems, and the fact that he was probably the most famous man on the planet and had all this money didnít really help. He was struggling in his own way. Money and fame just put his problems under a magnifying glass.

lj: What was the saddest or most pathetic thing you discovered?

RR: His personal life. His relationship with May Pang. It was so clear he was dying to be with her and he couldnít do it. He wrote about that a lot. And then his relationship with Julian. He just couldnít connect with Julian. That was sad.

lj: What did you find to be the most shocking?

RR: Obviously I knew about the rivalry with McCartney, and the jealousy, but I think the extent of it...how often he thought about McCartney, and how jealous he was...I found that pretty shocking. I found it shocking that he was so into money. And the emphasis that was put on the occult was pretty shocking. The extent that they got into it.

lj: What would you most like the readers of this interview to know about John?

RR: His diaries are such a vivid example of how money and fame are not going to solve your problems. It can exacerbate your problems. Johnís biggest fantasy was just being in the same house with Sean and Julian and Yoko. Itís the simple things that make you happy.

lj: What has been the general reaction to your book?

RR: The book sold very well. It was a Los Angeles Times bestseller. It was a bestseller in the UK and Denmark. Itís out in Japan. Itís out in paperback in England. Itís coming out in Germany before the end of the year. All those things are very satisfying. There were some wonderful reviews, some wonderful articles. The book obviously sparked a lot of controversy. Iím just very happy that after all these years, for the most part, people responded very well to the book. People have told me how human John seems to them after reading the book. They feel closer to him, and they like him more. The positive feedback has been overwhelming.

lj: Do you have any regrets about your involvement in this whole thing?

RR: Only if the book had never been published. It was a very difficult thing to live with this for 20 years. It was such a relief when the book was finally published and people starting buying it. Things turned out very well. I have no regrets. It finally launched my career as a writer. Iím very grateful to John Lennon, because heís responsible for this. Allís well that ends well.

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Yeah, it is fascinating since he was such a complex man...

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Thanks for the articles, shyGirl and Angel; pretty compelling stuff here! I'm not sure how accurate Rosen's book is, though (besides the mistake with John's height). Trying to reconstruct a set of diaries from memory sounds extremely difficult to me; it would be quite error-prone. Also, if this is the book and author I think it is, I ran across it once in the library. I skimmed the intro until I got to the point where the author said he lost weight to match John's weight so he would be better able to understand him. That seemed a bit bizarre to me, and I put the book away unread.

Has anyone here besides Sleepy read Goldman's book? It'd be interesting to see if we can determine who "A" is, as Rosen claims you can.

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I read it but it was a while ago...I might have to get my hands on a copy so I can read it again...cuz my interest is piqued now...

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<BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Tahoma, Arial, Sans-Serif">Quote:</font><HR>Originally Posted By angelgodiva:
There is another woman mentioned in the diaries who is referred to only as "A". That has me really curious.<HR></BLOCKQUOTE>

Ooo! Wouldn't that be awesome if he were reffering to you? If I were you, I'd be dying to know what was written.

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That's what I want to find out! It has had me curious since I read the article.

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Old Nov 11, 2002, 08:26 PM   #12
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Oh! YEAH!!! OMG! Angel...thinking something like that would be driving me positively crazy

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Old Nov 11, 2002, 08:57 PM   #13
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Now that would be a trip, Angel!

He mentions that he got the name in Albert Goldman's book. Were you in AG's book, by chance? If you were, it might be the only decent thing AG's ever written.

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Old Nov 11, 2002, 09:03 PM   #14
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I don't know; I have never read that book. As far as I know, May's new book is the only one I have ever been mentioned in. I really would like to find out, though. If I can find out what the book says about "A", I will be able to tell.

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Old Nov 11, 2002, 10:14 PM   #15
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<BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Tahoma, Arial, Sans-Serif">Quote:</font><HR>Originally Posted By shyGirl:
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According to Rosen, a former pal of Lennon's aide-turned-thief, Frederic Seaman, the ex-Beatle's continued desire for Pang was evident in many of the diary entries he made from 1975 until his slaying outside the Dakota apartments on Dec. 8, 1980.

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That's sad, but how come these guys have access to John's diary? I think the reason he wrote these thoughts in his diary was so that they would be private, and it seems such an invasion of his privacy for stuff like this to be written about...


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As I have said before, this kind of stuff is too sad for words. There are certain things in a person's life that are absolutely meant to be kept private- as in, NOT FOR PUBLIC ATTENTION. I love John dearly, and I post a lot about him all the time (as is noticable), but never for a second would I find it appealing to want to know all his personal tidbits, read his diary, etc. That was his private stuff, apart of his life.

I just feel bad for John. Its always "this person says this" or "I believe this," but the only actual truth could come from the man himself- who isn't around to defend himself in any way. That probably upsets Yoko more than anything. People don't want to believe some sources, but then again they think she's lying whenever she tries to contradict anything...poor John.

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Old Nov 11, 2002, 11:47 PM   #17
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<BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Tahoma, Arial, Sans-Serif">Quote:</font><HR>Originally Posted By Sexy_Sadie:
That's sad, but how come these guys have access to John's diary? I think the reason he wrote these thoughts in his diary was so that they would be private, and it seems such an invasion of his privacy for stuff like this to be written about...


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Evidently, the diaries were stolen from the Dakota and passed around amongst a few people before Yoko managed to get them back. I don't know much about it; I never even knew until recently that John even KEPT a diary. May knew, of course, but even though she was living with him, she didn't read them. Of course the parts mostlt discussed here were written AFTER John had returned to Yoko.
I certainly agree that it was a severe intrusion for anyone to write a book based on John's private thoughts,and that ideally this should never have been done, but at the same time I have to admit to being curious about just who "A" might be...I am also glad that May has more than just my word and her hopes to go on that John really did love her.



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It never seems to amaze me. You can learn all you can about a person like John, and yet still learn something new about him everyday. What I wouldnt give to have the chance to interview him. Just to get the chance to sit and talk to him about his life...oh well, maybe in the next life.

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Well for May, I'm glad she got something positive from it. And I don't blame ya Angel for your curiosity being risen due to the "A". I know I would be...I need to find AG's book. Is it as bad, as people say...cuz I don't remember much about it at all.

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<BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Tahoma, Arial, Sans-Serif">Quote:</font><HR>Originally Posted By Apple Scruff:
As I have said before, this kind of stuff is too sad for words. There are certain things in a person's life that are absolutely meant to be kept private- as in, NOT FOR PUBLIC ATTENTION. I love John dearly, and I post a lot about him all the time (as is noticable), but never for a second would I find it appealing to want to know all his personal tidbits, read his diary, etc. That was his private stuff, apart of his life.

I just feel bad for John. Its always "this person says this" or "I believe this," but the only actual truth could come from the man himself- who isn't around to defend himself in any way. That probably upsets Yoko more than anything. People don't want to believe some sources, but then again they think she's lying whenever she tries to contradict anything...poor John.

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Ta so much for saying this. I haven't been reading this subject as I knew May for a short time in the 80s & know who & what she really is. As a "friend", I have nothing to say.

Today a friend mentioned this topic to me & that person told me about some of the discussion here. Although I have not read this topic & don't plan to, I also must say that my heart just completely breaks for the Beatles as human-beings. Is nothing in their lives sacred?

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